Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Hello! Boy a lot has changed in a week... my son is now a week and 2 days old. I already don't remember life without him.

As I sit home with my new little boy, I have so much time to just look at him and think. Also a lot of time to spend time with family and friends and enjoy the moment. So many things are flooding through my mind. I now know what parents mean when they say "you'll never know how much emotion you'll have toward your child until you hold them for the very first time."

When little Tommy was born, I knew I was in love with him but it wasn't until the middle of the night the next day when the nursery brought him back to me after keeping him a few hours so I could rest, that I noticed something. What I noticed was just how much I missed him. It was like a piece of me was missing, and I counted the minutes until he was back in my room. I didn't care if he kept me up all night, I just wanted to hold him.

Something else that was so wonderful, was seeing my parents and my husband's parents hold their grandson for the first time. I remember when I was a child, I asked my dad what was the best part of his life, and his response to me was..."beside becoming a Christian and a parent, I think seeing my daughter experience parenthood will make my life complete." He was there when Tommy IV was rolled out of the operating room into the nursery. In my "groggy" state, I remember him running down the aisle with a smile on his face saying "he's just beautiful Rebecca, just beautiful." Seeing him with his grandson made time stop.

Every move little Tommy makes seems to come with a huge amount of emotion for me. I knew that being a parent would be wonderful, but I never knew how much I would love my baby. I also didn't know how much more I would love my husband and God.

I know my child is on loan to me from God, and I just hope He lets me have him for a while.

Thank you so much for all of the e-mails and the gifts.. and the prayers and the warm thoughts. This has been a remarkable time for our family... and we're so grateful to have so much support.

Talk to you soon. Take care and God Bless!

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